from MY STORY album.

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Weaving their way through crevices between the enveloping clouds
The stars battle each other
Their sparkle, like prayers resembling screams
Tightens my heart

Morning, please somehow come soon to get me
Before I lose the ability to hide my weakness

Just because you aren’t here
The night becomes so lonely, it’s a mystery

Just how many more similar
Sins must I continue to commit

Before I stop being human
Before I stop being reflected in anyone’s eyes

Falling over, in my place of refuge
There is nothing I want
Tearing out the emotions within my heart
Pasting a smile onto my mask

Please somehow take me away from this place
Before everything turns into memories

Meeting you, I learnt a little
Of what it’s like to love someone

If someday, I can stop making amends
If the day I can be forgiven finally comes

But by then, I will no longer be qualified
To talk about the definition of happiness

Just because you aren’t here
The night becomes so lonely, it’s a mystery

Meeting you, I learnt a little
Of what it’s like to love someone

That’s right, things like happy endings
More than anyone else, I know that they are not for me

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ROOMAJI

Tachikomeru kumo sukima nuu you ni
Hoshitachi ga semegiau
Sakebi ni mo nita inori no you na kagayaki ga
Mune wo shimetsukeru

Asa yo douka watashi wo hayaku mukae ni kite
Yowasa wo kakushi kirenaku naru mae ni

Anata ga inai dake de konnani
Yoru ga samishii nante fushigi ne

Ato dono kurai onaji you na
Tsumi wo okashite kurikaeshitara

Watashi wa hito de nakunatte shimau no darou
Dare no me ni mo utsuranaku naru no darou

Korogaru you ni nigekonda basho ni
Hoshii mono nante nai
Kokoro kara kanjou dake wo hagitotte
Kamen ni egao haritsukeru

Douka konna toko kara watashi wo tsuresatte
Subete ga omoide ni naru mae ni

Anata to deai hito wo aisuru
Imi wo sukoshi shitta ki ga shita

Itsuka tsugunai kireta to shitara
Yurusareru hi ga yatte kita nara

Dakedo imasara shiawase no teigi nante
Kataru shikaku nado doko ni mo nokottenai

Anata ga inai dake de konnani
Yoru ga samishii nante fushigi ne

Anata to deai hito wo aisuru
Imi wo sukoshi shitta ki ga shita

Sou ne watashi ni wa koufuku na ketsumatsu nado
Niawanai koto mo dare yori wakatteiru

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KANJI

立ちこめる雲 隙間縫うように
星達がせめぎ合う
叫びにも似た 祈りのような輝きが
胸を締め付ける

朝よどうか私を早く迎えに来て
弱さを隠しきれなくなる前に

あなたがいないだけでこんなに
夜が淋しいなんて不思議ね

あとどのくらい同じような
罪を犯して繰り返したら

私は人間でなくなってしまうのだろう
誰の目にも写らなくなるのだろう

転がるように逃げ込んだ場所に
欲しいものなんてない
心から感情だけを剥ぎ取って
仮面に笑顔貼りつける

どうかこんなとこから私を連れ去って
全てが思い出になる前に

あなたと出会い人を愛する
意味を少し知った気がした

いつか償いきれたとしたら
許される日がやって来たなら

だけど今更幸せの定義なんて
語る資格などどこにも残ってない

あなたがいないだけでこんなに
夜が淋しいなんて不思議ね

あなたと出会い人を愛する
意味を少し知った気がした

そうね私には幸福な結末など
似合わない事も誰よりわかっている