ツラくないよ (Tsurakunai yo) – It doesn’t hurt

from Shoujo X album.

——

As my annoying childhood friend
You rely on me so easily
As you say “there’s a girl I like”

“Teach me what a girl likes
And where she likes to go”
Your eyes sparkle so innocently

Suddenly facing me with a serious look
You say “I really have to thank you”

“When someone falls for a person
We should support them”
I’ve heard of that, but

It’s you
I can’t say it, but I love you
Your kindness, your smile
Because I’ve always been by your side, watching you

Since long ago
I’ve been in love with you
But you rejected me before I could confess
If I can support your romance
Then it doesn’t hurt

A few days later, first thing in the morning
You run to me happily
Saying “I’ve gotten a first date”

Next to the excited you
I wonder if I managed to smile well

You place a hand on my forehead
And say to me
“You look unwell”

It’s you
I won’t say it, but I hate you
Your warmth, your thickheadedness
The tears I’m holding back threaten to fall

Tomorrow too
I’ll be thinking of you
And praying for your happiness
Because I love your smile most of all
It doesn’t hurt

——

ROOMAJI

Sewa no kakaru osana najimi
Sugu watashi ni tayotte kuru
Ki ni naru ko ga irunda yo to kimi wa

Onna no ko no suki na mono ya
Ikitai basho oshiete yo to
Mujaki sugiru kirakira shita hitomi

Kyuu ni maji na kao de furi muki
O-rei shinakya da nante ne

Dareka suki na hito itara
Ouen suru yo tte
Kikareta kedo

Kimi nanda yo
Ienai kedo daisuki da yo
Sono yasashisa sono egao mo
Itsumo soba de mitsume tsuzuketa kara

Zutto mae kara
Kimi no koto ga suki datta yo
Iu mae kara furareta kedo
Kimi no koi wo ouen dekiru nara
Tsurakunai yo

Suujitsugo no asa ichiban
Ureshi sou ni hashitte kuru
Hatsu deeto no yakusoku dekita tte

Hashagu kimi no tonari de watashi
Umaku waraeteita kana

Odeko ni te wo aterarete
Choushi waru sou da yo to
Iwareta yo ne

Kimi nanda yo
Iwanai kedo dai kirai yo
Kono nukumori sono nibusa mo
Gaman shiteta namida ga afure sou

Kitto ashita mo
Kimi no koto wo omotteru yo
Sono shiawase inotteru yo
Sono egao ga ichiban suki dakara
Tsurakunai yo

——

KANJI

世話のかかる幼馴染
すぐ私に頼ってくる
気になる子がいるんだよと君は

女の子の好きなモノや
行きたい場所教えてよと
無邪気すぎるキラキラした瞳

急にマジな顔で振り向き
お礼しなきゃだなんてね

誰か好きな人いたら
応援するよって
聞かれたけど

君なんだよ
言えないけど大好きだよ
その優しさ　その笑顔も
いつもそばで見つめ続けたから

ずっと前から
君のことが好きだったよ
言う前からフラれたけど
君の恋を応援できるなら
ツラくないよ

数日後の朝一番
嬉しそうに走ってくる
初デートの約束できたって

はしゃぐ君のとなりで私
うまく笑えていたかな

おでこに手を当てられて
調子悪そうだよと
言われたよね

君なんだよ
言わないけど大嫌いよ
このぬくもり　そのニブさも
我慢してた涙があふれそう

きっと明日も
君のことを想ってるよ
そのしあわせ祈ってるよ
その笑顔が一番好きだから
ツラくないよ