from PAST TRUNK album + LOVE BRACE/innocence single.
—–
Whenever I turn around, there was always someone there
I felt that I was protected
Even so, I remembered starting to feel the loneliness
As I let go of the hand I was holding on to
Looking up at the faded blurred sky
I moved away from the crowd, walked the other path alone
What had I always believed in?
What had I always protected?
The flower before my eyes, though alone, bloomed strong
And I remember that sky I saw that day
With no destination, I just cowered
Because there was nowhere I could go
I didn’t want any kindness, it was surely just pretence
But I still wanted someone beside me
Acting strong, never telling anyone the truth
I had been climbing the steps to being an adult
What had I always been searching for?
What had I always had in my hands?
Looking at children, holding and protecting their precious treasures
I superimposed myself onto them
What shall I believe in?
What shall I protect?
What shall I search for?
And what shall I have in my hands?
The flower before my eyes, though alone, bloomed strong
And I remember that sky I saw that day
“Maybe I can no longer be left on my own”
—–
ROOMAJI
Furimukeba itsumo tonari ni dareka ite
Mamorareteiru ki ga shiteta
Soredemo itsukara ka hitori kiri no samishisa oboete
Tsunaideita sono te wo hanashita
Iroasete nijindeiku sora wo miagete
Hitogomi no naka hamidashite hitori betsu no michi aruita
Watashi wa nani wo shinjite kita no darou?
Watashi wa nani wo mamotte kita no darou?
Me no mae ni aru hana wa ichirin demo tsuyoku saite ite
Ano hi mita sora wo omoidasaseru
Ikuate mo naku tada uzukumatteita
Tayoreru basho ga nakatta kara
Kitto misekake dake no yasashisa nante hoshiku nakatta
Demo dareka soba ni wa ite hoshikatta
Tsuyogatte itemo hontou no tokoro wa
Dare ni mo iezu ni otona he no kaidan wo nobotte kita kara
Watashi wa nani wo sagashite kita no darou?
Watashi wa nani wo te ni shite kita no darou?
Taisetsu na takaramono kakaete mamotteiru kodomo wo
Mite wa jibun to kasaneawaseta
Watashi wa nani wo shinjite iku no darou?
Watashi wa nani wo mamotte iku no darou?
Watashi wa nani wo sagashite iku no darou?
Soshite nani wo te ni shite iku no darou?
Me no mae ni aru hana wa ichirin demo tsuyoku saite ite
Ano hi mita sora wo omoidasaseru
“Mou hitori kiri nanka ja irarenai no kamoshirenai”
—–
KANJI
振り向けばいつも隣に誰かいて
守られている気がしてた
それでもいつからかひとりきりの寂しさ覚えて
繋いでいたその手を離した
色褪せて滲んでいく空を見上げて
人混みの中はみ出してひとり別の道歩いた
私は何を信じてきたのだろう?
私は何を守ってきたのだろう?
目の前にある花は一輪でも強く咲いていて
あの日見た空を思い出させる
行く宛もなくただうずくまっていた
頼れる場所がなかったから
きっと見せかけだけの優しさなんて欲しくなかった
でも誰か側にはいて欲しかった
強がっていても本当のところは
誰にも言えずに大人への階段を昇ってきたから
私は何を探してきたのだろう?
私は何を手にしてきたのだろう?
大切な宝物抱えて守っている子供を
見ては自分と重ね合わせた
私は何を信じていくのだろう?
私は何を守っていくのだろう?
私は何を探していくのだろう?
そして何を手にしていくのだろう?
目の前にある花は一輪でも強く咲いていて
あの日見た空を思い出させる
「もう一人きりなんかじゃいられないのかもしれない」
