もしかして (Moshikashite) – If

from Mirai / Moshikashite single + Music is My Life album.

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If I can still meet you even now
Maybe I won’t even believe it myself

We’re no longer lovers, but am I cruel
To still chat with you as per normal even now?

If you start to love someone else
Maybe a day will come when I can give you my blessings

Saying bye bye with a calm face, am I cruel
To smile as if nothing was wrong?

But
The road home which we used to walk together feels so lonely alone
Yes, I’ve always been holding on

My tears wouldn’t stop
Just what was I doing?
Acting tough, standing still, faking endurance
Why did I say I was alright when I wasn’t?

If I count all the things I didn’t like about you
Will I fall asleep easier?

My friends comment “You still love him, right?”
I laugh it off and lie

But
I realize that I still have that umbrella I borrowed from you
Yes, I’ve always been holding on

Like that night when the sky lost its colors
My eyes remain red and swollen
Crying non-stop, dawn breaks, I endure again
Why did I say I was alright when I should have kept silent?

Won’t 10 years just pass by already? Would I have forgotten you totally by then?
Can I ever forget your white T-shirt, your fragrance?

My tears wouldn’t stop
Just what was I doing?
Acting tough, standing still, faking endurance
Why did I say I was alright when I wasn’t?

Like that night when the sky lost its colors
My eyes remain red and swollen
Crying non-stop, dawn breaks, I endure again
Why did I say I was alright when I should have kept silent?

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