from (miss)understood album.
——
“I’m alright”, I tell everyone
As I put on a practiced smile
It’s not being irresponsible
But an intuition to defiance
The reason why I hid my trembling hands
Is because your pity is too cold
The warmth of a half-hearted pretense
Is not enough to warm me up
In that case, I’d rather you pretend not to see
Until it’s been smashed up, without leaving any trace
At this point, I have no wish
To listen to or pay lip service
The pain will continue to increase
So I’ll just go on accepting it
The clear air is frightening
Being the quiet before the storm
Just what do those seemingly kind people
Really want to know?
At the back of their gentle eyes
Sharp knives known as curiosity hide
Just what do you want?
Just what do you wish for?
Just where are you heading to?
And who are you going to meet there?
This is the first and last time
You get the chance to live as yourself
So after spreading out the large map
Just draw out your own path
——
ROOMAJI
Daijoubu da tte ii kikasete
Tokui no egao ni kiri kaeru
Nageyari da tte iun ja nakute
Hiraki naotta tte iu kankaku
Furueru te wo kakushita no wa
Doujou ga samu sugiru kara
Chuuto hanpa de misekake dake no
Nukumori nanka ja atatamaranai
Sore nara isso minai furi shite
Atokata mo naku kudake chiru made
Imasara kireigoto da nante
Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai
Itami wa fueru ippou darou
Naraba uketomete yuku made sa
Kowai kurai sunda kuuki wa
Arashi ga kuru mae no shizukesa
Shinsetsu sou na ano hitobito wa
Hontou wa nani wo shiritai no darou
Yasashige na me no oku ni surudoi
Kouki to iu na no naifu kakushite
Kimi wa ittai nani ga hoshii no
Kimi wa ittai nani wo negau no
Kimi wa ittai doko wo mezasu no
Soshite soko he wa dare to mukau no
Kimi ga kimi de ikirareru no wa
Saisho de saigo kono ichido dake
Ookina chizu wo hirogeta ato wa
Kimi dake no michi wo egakeba ii
——
KANJI
大丈夫だって言い聞かせて
得意の笑顔に切り替える
投げやりだっていうんじゃなくて
開き直ったっていう感覚
震える手を隠したのは
同情がさむすぎるから
中途半端で見せかけだけの
温もりなんかじゃ暖まらない
それならいっそ見ないフリして
跡形もなく砕け散るまで
今更きれい事だなんて
聞くつもりも言うつもりもない
痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ
こわいくらい澄んだ空気は
嵐が来る前の静けさ
親切そうなあの人々は
本当は何を知りたいのだろう
優しげな目の奥に鋭い
好奇という名のナイフ隠して
君は一体何が欲しいの
君は一体何を願うの
君は一体どこを目指すの
そしてそこへは誰と向かうの
君が君で生きられるのは
最初で最後この一度だけ
大きな地図を広げた後は
君だけの道を描けばいい
