失格 (Shikkaku) – No right
from Shikkaku single + Golden Best 20th Anniversary album.
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Words which I want to say, I can’t speak any of them
Things which I want to do, I can’t achieve any of them
Though I cry for myself, I can’t cry for others
I scream about principles and advocacy, but I have no courage to step out
Only the sick and infants lie sleeping in bed all day
I’m still too young to feel hatred towards anything
Words spoken by others don’t resonate within my heart
Can’t become a worthy girl full of brightness and energy
Always aware of others’ gazes on me, I can’t accept them
Can’t think of the boss’ opinion as necessary or right
Girls don’t just wait for kisses on a moonlit night
My cheap bed creaks noisily, and I sink into depression
I’m not in love, but I dream of embracing someone
With a snap, the pink rose petals split open and fall
The thing I treasure most is my meagre self
The thing which bothers me most is still, yes, my nonsensical self
I don’t care about protecting the ones I love, or anything else
But I dislike waiting alone in Shibuya at night
Umeda, Namba, Shinsaibashi, Motomachi, Nishinomiya
I used to love this city so much, but I’ve forgotten it now
I pretended to be Chaka Khan and sang
“Whatcha gonna do for me”
Shedding tears without any reason
“Whatcha gonna do for me”
I boast that I’d once lived in Okinawa
The strong sunlight there had left freckles on my face
I hurt, am hurt, distracting myself by making merry
Comforting a heartbroken friend, I somehow feel relieved
“You have no right!” I want someone to say that to me clearly
That I have no right to live that admired life
Ahh, I curl up into a ball in this town dyed red by sunset
They scold me, pile shame on me, but I used to walk on straight, yet…
Unable to sleep, I turn on the TV, smoke a cigarette, so miserable
I could cry over this unfair treatment, but the night is seeped into the cackling TV
When asked what my hobby is, I reply that I like to travel
Telling them of all the countries and times I’ve been, showing off
I want to put on an underhanded smile and chew upon a nail
Even if I trample on promises, I want to pretend to be a refined lady
Have you ever passed by those who had been hit by a car?
Have you ever seen those who are unhappy and laughed at them?
Don’t care if father dates a young woman
Want to ask mother about her new fiance
I want to become even more beautiful, to play even harder
I want to become even more serious, to learn even more
Looking back alone on this insignificant way of life
I want to love this self who grumbles about reason
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Covered by:
Flower Companyz in Yozora no taiyou single.
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